The best place to be

I was talking to someone dear to me yesterday, and after reading my last blog they were worried about me.  They called to see if I was "okay".  They felt like I was in a bad place.  To be honest, I wasn't sure what to say. Their fear for me took me by surprise.  They were worried that my state of mind and emotions were in a dark place. 

I began to wonder if my readers are receiving the wrong message. I know in my last blog I admitted to being a "pit dweller", but I feel the need to clarify a few things just in case my readers believe the same thing as this other person in my life.  Having been through many trials, or as I referred to them in my last blog "pits", I am in the best place I could be, right in the middle of God's plan for my life.  I have never been stretched so much, held so tight, or ever more convinced of God's love for me than I am right now.  I wouldn't trade a single tear, weak moment, or painful thought for the glory that God is receiving through my pain. 

I have moved from a place of faith built on sand, that was blown away easily when the slightest wind came, to a faith built on rock that can withstand the worse storm.  If God calls me in and out of trials for the rest of my life I will willingly follow because God's plan for me is the best plan for me.  He loves me with a love that I have only found by walking through the depths of dark valley's.  I was reading in Romans 8 this morning and I felt as if I could have written this passage myself.  I don't usually include a huge chunk of scripture, but please read the entire thing.  It is worth it:

Romans 8:31-39 (New Living Translation)


Nothing Can Separate Us from God’s Love

31 What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? 32 Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else? 33 Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. 34 Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us.
35 Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? 36 (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”) 37 No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

If God is for me, then no one, or no thing can stand against me and win.  I am a victor in this life because of Christ.  God did not even spare His most precious gift for me, His son.  He hung him on a cross for my sin.  I no longer have the right to doubt if God will provide the most insignificant gifts in my life.  God is the most loving, lavishing, gift giving father.  Nothing can separate me from the love of God: not infertility, not painful waiting, not financial worry, not job frustrations, NOTHING! 

But the most important point of this piece of scripture and in my life is that now I am convinced.  Before the pits, trials, and tribulations, I was not convinced of God's love for me.  I allowed the fears for today and the worries about tomorrow to make me doubt his love.  No longer is that the case. 
So, yes I do have bad days where emotionally I am torn, hurting, sad, mad, fill in the blank, but spiritually I remain convinced of God's love for me.  Because of that I can face life in victory no matter how bad my day has been. 

I pray that sharing with you my emotional struggles has not deceived you into thinking that I am not in a good place.  If you, like this other dear person, worry about my well being- please do not.  I am an over comer and I am a victor because the ultimate victory has already been won, Jesus rose from the dead, and one day I will spend eternity with Him!  That is a life and a promise worth celebrating.  I could not be more thankful for where I am in life. I could not be more convinced of God's love for me.  I am in the best place to be, wrapped in the loving arms of an amazing Father who I cannot be separated from!